I'm back !!

Oh my gosh !!! I've nearly forgotten that had a blog... hahahaha.... coz it's been too long I didn't write and express my thoughts here.

I felt like out of sudden my life was so busy, with work, with studies etc.... everything seems okay so far, just that a bit hard for me to adapt the lifestyle right now. How to say? Hmm.... little things in life got to solve, just can hope for the best and smooth process for all.

Will try to update my blog again once I've settle my stuff. Ahemm... PhD I mean  =D

Night !

I wonder

ehmmmm, will there be any surprise this year?

Yes?? No???

Of course I hope there is a "YES"....

Sad 2012

Not a good year for me in 2012....

1) My SLK *aka "Small Little Kancil" started to lau gai d.... give me a surprise by broken down on the way I'm driving home from MMU....

2) My RS job contract might have delay due to no incoming project funding ...... meaning going to be jobless soon

3) Gonna boost up to finish my PhD in this year (June 2012), stressful right after CNY coz gonna meet with my supervisor every week.

4) No money spend......

5) T____T

Die die die......

怎么搞的

不理啦~!

反真都没有人会珍惜的， 为家付出；反而被人埋怨。。搞到自己拿来烦~!

年轻的就袖手旁观，什么都不说， 拍拍屁股就走人；

年老的就唠唠叨叨，搞不清楚状况；就随意乱掰，搬弄是非。

好心想要帮助你，帮你省钱，你不领情。。

我呢，麻烦到别人，跟他说声抱歉；却被他误解说我很”假”。。

怎么搞的啊~!

Back to reality

Just had a very last minute trip decided to go Port Dickson yesterday. Well, although it was a bit rush to pack up for this sudden trip; but really enjoyed... At last ~!!! Managed to soak in a super big bathtub to relax myself.

And now.. my energy regained and hope for a better trip coming very very soon ^^

As for now, back to reality life where "Studies + Work" mode back on track.....

Jia you jia you ~!!!!! :-)

What say you??

一个在你没有地位，没有权势，在你没有给她任何东西之前就爱着你的女人，这样的女人，是「真心在爱着你的女人]

If this statement appears to be on you, will you still say it out even you've betray people before?

How pathetic.....hahaha.. XD

幸福的祝贺

终于搞定了，我哥向他的女朋友求婚，她答应了。。。太好了！！！

替你们高兴。。。

致：我哥和我的未来大嫂。。。

祝福你们永远幸福快乐 :)

I need a holiday break again.

Couldn't take it anymore liao. My stress level return! OMG...Omg... What is the problem? Not more than 2 months my mood drop again... I need more trip. Seriously, or else i'll go mad b4 I complete my PhD @@

我想扁人。。。

我又做错了什么吗? 干嘛又脸黑黑对着我??

今年不知道搞什么的，每一样东西都是不顺利。。。想要的，就得不到；不想看到或得到的，偏偏就出现在我面前。。。。还是要被逼做出选择，这像话吗???

讨厌，讨厌，很讨厌啊 !!!!

Back from Aussie trip

So sorry for the long long looong delay of updating my blog..... =.= (*still thinking am I suppose to upload my aussie trip photos here, crazy alot... and I'm so lazy, hehehehe)

But anyway, for those who is interested; you can just browse all the photos in my facebook account. (*took me almost one whole week right after I came back from Aussie to upload the photos into my facebook account ..... SUPER DUPER SIENZzzZZzzzzzz while uploading :P )

Overall what I can say from my Aussie trip is awesome!!! (of course la, paid so much for the air ticket to go there attend the education conference - Ascilite 2010, just treat it as part of my overseas holiday trip too lor )

Basically I went for this trip with my postgraduate classmate, Heidi =)
We really had alot of fun there, enjoy the conference, foods, peoples, holiday destination etc etc... But never forget to thank my relatives also for their time and effort spend on us. Thank you so much !!! Muackss.... :-*

It was my really first time travel so far to overseas country, Australia- Sydney & Melbourne. Enjoy the lovely weather there which suited me so well. ( temperature of 14-26 degree celcius eventhough it's their Summer season ) Hahahhaa.... never ever sweat a single drop there for 2 weeks long !!! But once I touched down back to LCCT, the moment I get out from the arrival hall, I started to sweat again.... hehehehe

Anyway, it was a good experience for us (from conference to vacation). I hope I can visit there once again ( maybe with my parents and my dear going too, LoL)

Lets just see hows my research scholar job goes ;)

That's all for now... ^^

Who can talk to me?

I'm so bored... I'm so stress as well....

"Go out lah" ... but where to go?? Everywhere also crowded... I wonder how come nowadays people no need to work, yet there is alot of ppl go shopping and buy stuff.

"Go shopping lor" ... where is the $$$$ ?

"Relax at home lah, do spa or watever" .... but again, where is my bath tub? or that bath tub renamed as "fish pond" at home... @_@ how to soak my stressful body to relax?

"Go for sports lor " ... where is my companion???

"Go hang out with ur dear lor' .... where is he????????? working lor.....

Why everything also got obstruction de.. fan sei ar !!!!!!!

Who really can talk to me??

='(

It returns !!!!

What is that kind of feeling again? How come it keeps repeating geh?

Anxious, Worry, Unsecure, Wondering, Uncomfortable....

Are those words really mean it?
Or it's just an excuse...

...who knows it got hidden msg behind it?

I choose to believe, but izzit really true?

Or it might ended up with disappointment again T_T

What should I do???

Special day

I missed the morning session of 10/10/10 10:10:10am. But I managed to celebrate the night session of 10/10/10 10:10:10pm. Yay !!!!

Although today's date is not a special day for me, but I still manage to feel the "hapiness" feeling for those people who are getting married today.

As for me, I just guai guai stay at home today....

Night...

101010

Happy 10/10/10

For those who are getting married on this date, congratulation....

And for those who are proposing to their love ones on this date, congratulations as well....

Even.... for those who plan to give birth on this date... also congratulations...

It's a special date that falls 10/10/10..... ones in a life time, pls cherish the moment.

Hope everything okay to me.....

Workload 多到整座山酱。。

Sien ooo.... Not happy with my work. Don't understand what to write for my journal. Day day also think of publish journal, no others..... gao mang ar... !!!

Besides that....

No income, fan !!! No time for accompany, fan !!! No break to travel, fan !!! Can't sleep well, also fan !!!!

What also 烦餐饱。。。 =.=

可有想过我的感觉。。

在你心中，我更本就没有地位。

为了朋友，你会为他们赴汤蹈火。

为了工作，你也宁愿牺牲时间去完成。

但为了我，你完完全全把我丢在一边。。。

当你忙于应酬朋友，工作时；我根本不存在。。

当你寂寞时， 才来偶尔想起我；你曾想过调换我的角色，这一切发生在你身上。。你感觉如何??


一个简单的短讯，说你平安回到家；真的那么难吗??

曾有想过，我会担心。。。你曾想过调换我的角色，这一切发生在你身上。。你感觉如何??

“喝醉了。。。” 一个简单的借口，就把事情忘得一干二净；过后重复又重复。


我，算什么??

A bored weekend

Weekend should be the day to go out for relaxation. Yet I just can stay at home bored for the whole morning. Yesterday night only able to meet my dear for movie. We watched "Salt" starring by Angelina Jolie at Pavilion KL. Aih, regret didn't buy the tickets online. We reached Pavilion around 8pm to get the tickets. There was only left the very front seats to buy, since we were there already; we got no choice to get the tickets. T_T

I sitted until my neck also pain coz too front d. Watched until felt like vomit (*the screen is too close and yet my viewing angle cannot fit everything into my vision while watching.)

I really don't wanna sit front seats anymore !!!!!!

Then now I just stay at home again coz dear went out buffet with his frens @Tao, the Asian Cuisine located at Sunway Giza, Damansara. I guess they have their guys outing whole day. I just can guai guai sit at home, wait to grow mushrooms.

Ahhh....... I need to go out now !!!!! Cannot tahan d. Can I go genting now?? Seriously I need to get out from here to get some fresh air. I'm tired of being stuck at home all the time. People go out shopping at weekend bcoz they need to work during weekdays time. For me is no different, weekdays stay at home, work at home, writting journal at home..... Thought of weekend can get out to relax, but everytime before I go out, I inform my parents that I'm going out, they show me their "unsatisfaction" faces. =.=

Why??? What is the problem? I can't have my own time to relax? Stay at home is call "relax" to you?? Yes!!! For you it is......But NOT FOR ME lor..... I need my frens... I need my own time... I need my life too..... Pls understand.

I hate myself whenever I see all my frens and relatives travel overseas. Don't care the distance near or far... I look back and ask myself:

"What's the point of life you're aiming for? Just study? Then finish study just work? Work to earn money for survival (*just to save money) but not to "pamper" myself to go travel everywhere? Is that kind of life you want? "

Improve, improve….

I wish to improve some of the skills below:

Driving
( drive a kancil always kena bully by big cars, hope can drive a better car )

Writing blog
( still learning hard now… >.< )

Yoga
( practice harder skills so that can slim down more )

Make up
( at least some simple make up for some event lor )

Drawing/ sketching
( by sketching up some of my dream idea of my dream house )

Photography
( hope for more outing so that can practice the skills I’ve learned during study )

Thesis write up
( which this is the worst I’m currently facing, just can’t write it properly… gao mang ar !!! )

$$$$ Savings
( wish to get out from here to get back my “life”. Shouldn’t being control and lock like this all the time )

Diarrhea experience

Last Friday, I had my routine class like usual at MMU. Everything seems okay until reach evening. I went out with my dad buy dinner for my mum and granma. We went out to the Chinese makan stall as we used to visit. I don’t felt like eating much, so just order a soup plus plain rice. Additional, just ordered a Chinese ice tea. After eat, I went to buy their dinner which actually is just opposite the makan stall. Right after I walked across to the place, my stomach started to pain.

“Hmmm….. well well, I guess just like normal stomachache….” This was my first taught at the moment. So I was still happy to tell my dad that… “Hey, why not we go for driving range tonight? Think of getting some sweat exercise.” My dad was so excited and replied.. “Of course, hahahaha I also wish to go”. At the same time I told him…. But let me go to the toilet to do some “settlement” first.

After home, I drop down their food we bought and heading towards driving range. On the way to the destination, I felt something is not right already. Eh??? How come my stomach still keep pain de??? And really feel like going to toilet again. Again, right after I reached driving range. Everything started to change !!!! Hit few balls out, go toilet…… hit few more balls out, again… go toilet. In and out, in and out to the toilet I guess probably got 4 – 5 times. Something really really wrong already. Felt like wanna vomit, but cannot…. Yet stomach keep on pain.

I had no choice but to tell my dad about it. He started to worry, since I can’t even finish half of the total balls at the driving range. So he quickly finishes the practice and straight drive me home. On the way home, we tried to figure out what caused my problem. Since we both ate at the same place, we ordered food there and we did order Chinese tea as well. But his one was a glass of hot Chinese tea, but mine was in ice form. Gossh….. I guess what’s went wrong. We suspect is the ice got problem.

So once I reach home, again I rush to toilet again. My goodness…. It’s getting crazy! More pain plus more frequent to toilet. My parents started to worry. They try to gave me some medicine to easy my pain. But I just can’t…. and I even felt myself pain until 冒冷汗 @_@

I dear also started to worry and plan to bring me to clinic. Coz he suspected me got “food poisoning”. But that time already nearly 11 at night. I told him that if after medicine and reach 12 mid-night also no sign of getting better, he come over to fetch me to clinic. Well, I choose to monitor my situation after taken the medication. Yet, after 12 mid-night, still not much of improvement. I plan to send msg to my dear. But unfortunately, my dear’s hp running out of battery as he mentioned earlier to me where he might not able to reply me just incase his hp’s battery run flat. Plus so coincidence his house doesn’t have power supply, that’s why he cannot charge his phone. Awww….. =(

So I had no choice but to try to eat again the chinese medicine “保济丸” again. Phew…. I was so lucky, after awhile, my pain started to ease. But I already struggle during the night. By the time I started to feel less pain that time was already 2 – 3 am. And still, frequent to the toilet still the same. But at least my stomach won’t feel pain as crazy as before. So meaning to say, I’ve been struggle this stupid “diarrhea” for one whole night until the next morning. Around 6am in the morning. I already felt myself go toilet until 脚软….. walk also no strength.

“Tired + Weak” T.T

At the same time, I felt sorry for my dear because let him worry me. And supposingly we should have meet on Saturday night for outing. But bcoz of my condition, I hv to stay at home to get more rest. Ruin his weekend mood. So sorry =(

Man's Ego, does it matter?

Haih, "somebody" egoness is getting more and more serious lately. I can't say a thing because this ego comes from a person which I'm respecting the most. I felt like I don't even know how to talk to this "somebody" anymore.

Where in this "somebody's" mind..... 有他说，没你说 that type. Ask yourself, even you know you did wrong something, but because of the ego; you still wanna defense yourself saying that you're not wrong at all? Yet, still come across to blame some other people that it's their fault and not you yourself. Do you know how hard for me to cope??

You have your egoness, your feelings. But what about me? Don't you think I don't have my feelings too?