Lost

I dunno what's the point of living in such tension life. I feel so tired and helpless.

Why everything just doesn't goes smooth as I want. I don't have much time to waste as age catching up and I dunno where my direction should go. What I want, I can't achieve, what I wish; will never get it.

All I want is just a decent life.

Plssss..... DO SOMETHING !!!!

:(

Sleepless nite throughout the whole week

I can't sleep... too many things to think and settle.

Plus, with heavy headache.... even worst !! Need panadol to calm down just for few hours, then it returns again... @_@

Totally lost control d.... I dunno what am I doing now.
Really blur case O.o

The "break" in my brain doesn't stop. Gonna be mentally break down soon

Raya break holiday 21/9 - 22/9

Balik kampung.... woohoohoo balik kampung... woohoohoo balik kampung, riang ria !!!

Aiks ??? !!! I'm balik kampung ??? NoNoNo... ^o^

Not me la...
Then??? Where am I heading to then?

The teddy bear also wondered where were we headed to..

Here we are !!! Hot Spring Sg.Klah

This year's Raya break we went for a 2 days 1 night Hot Spring vacation at Sg.Klah, Perak. First time went for so called "hot spring" in Malaysia. All the while I just thought of hot spring this kind of place is only at Taiwan and Japan, didn't realised that Malaysia also had one too.

Since never try before, just go for it lor... (* promise myself that I surely will go try out those at Taiwan and Japan hot spring one day, IF I'm RICH .... LoL )

Here we are, 6 of us went for this vacation.

(**Photo taken at the main entrance of the hot spring)

Due to the reason of we all went down to the spring pool together, my DSLR have to keep at the locker; so we couldn't snap any photos. I had fun in the spring pool as all of us went there only around 7pm. Most of the people are leaving the place, so not really that crowded and hot stayed under the sun.

I feel so relaxed and happy once I got myself into the spring pool, it really helped me forgotten all the stress and tension feeling being compressed in my mind. After the session, the blood circulations made my turn immediate red. Looked like a tomato tranformed on my body.... XD

After that all of us were hungry until mad, so thought of hunt for any food as far as we can fill back our hungry stomach. But unfornately, it was the second day of Hari Raya.... hahaha, most of the shops closed !!!!

How How???? Mamak store, malay restaurant all closed. Ended up have to drive to the nearest small town, Slim River to hunt for food.... Reached that town was already nearly 9pm, we managed to find a chinese restaurant and had our dinner there. (* Luckily those shop haven close, or else worse come to worst we might have to buy cup noodle at the petrol station. )

After the dinner, everybody already felt exhausted; especially the drivers for this trip. 辛苦了两位。。 ^^

And this the hotel we stayed during the trip, Felda Residence, Trolak... (Just 10 mins away from the hot spring)

A last shot at the hotel before we head back to the busy city life in K.L

I do hope for a better trip again next time.

招架不住，快垮啦!!

黑眼圈跑出来了，晚上严重性失眠。怎么样??

工作，学业，情绪上的压力逐渐增加。为前途与钱途着想，开始变得不再是为自己而活，而是为了融入这个社会而活。

自己也觉得很奇怪，为何要怎么拼命；或许已经知道自己的能力是心有余而力不足，所以要比其他人更加努力才可以换来好日子。

更让现在的我，活得 "人唔似人，鬼唔似鬼" 。糟糕!!!!

别把我当成 “阿四” !!!!

Hahahaha, what a joke happened just now. I've nearly got myself into trouble by trying to help people as I'm becoming a servant :P

Don't wish to reveal as who is the person I'm mentioning, so better just keep quite and stay away from it. Maybe I easily get bully by people la, that's why people like to “打蛇随棍上” bully me lor.

No way man !!!! You want bully others, go find them.

BUT NOT ME DUDE !!!

XD

Graduation studio photo

Finally!!!!
It's been waited for 1 month already and the studio photo is done.

After getting this photo, only I realised that I lost weight a lot !!! Can't imagine how "残" my face is... even can see my face already "凹" inside already... :(

...... Is this really the sacrifications for getting a Master? How about PhD then?? Aren't that I'm preparing to become a 干尸 @_@

My family photo

I need a break !!!

Study.. working... preparation for phd stuff... freelance etc @_@

Workload reach til everything can falls on my head at the same time.

I need a break!!! put a "STOP" sign on my head. Time to relax ^^

Raya !!!! I want go walk walk :P

Chill chill .....

Nite ^^v

Scholarship?? Work?? Scholarship?? Work??

-__-"

aih... got the PhD offer letter d, also not a good thing. Why?

Read the letter, got so many things have to prepare for the registration. One of it is regarding the letter of scholarship.

I've check the Ministry of Higher Education website, plan to apply the scholarship d.. but with condition, I must not be working (*including permanent status and even contract basis) -_-
But I'm currently working as a research officer (RO) back in uni, is under contract basis.

How ler? what if they keep track my EPF record? Although my contract gonna end at this Oct, but still, i'm consider working.. I wonder can I still apply?

Anyway, I will still try to apply lor... if they reject me that time... only think how again >.<

Wish me luck lor