December

Year 2009 gonna end soon... feels happy but also feels sad... y??
Alot of things just couldn''t tell...
Happy is that, new year gonna arrive. Will that means there will be a better life ahead?
At the same time, I love December is bcoz other country is mostly in winter season. With snows and cold weather....
December makes people feels happy bcoz of Christmas is coming as well... there will be tons of holiday break for everybody. But is this applicable to me?
And also not to forget someday special.......

Oh ya.. turn around on talking about the sad side. December is the last month of every year, which means already wasted another year, one year older. Did I miss out something not doing this year? Or is that any other thing which I wish to achieve but fail to achieve?
Well well, I guess I do miss out alot of things I didnt do it... and I'm sure I already feel regret about it...
Urggghhh....Too tension thinking about that. -__-"

Nitezz...

Girl's heart sure melted if this wears on their finger

Wooahhh... suprised me on getting to see this "heart-shaped diamond ring". A very special ring made from De Gem. This ring belongs to a lucky girl who able to own it....

Hahaha... I wonder how many "Carat" or "K" there.... (*hmm, definately more than 18k gua)

Like I said, girl's heart sure melted if this wears on their finger. ^o^

Starbucks

Starbucks Chill Patrol reached MMU campus !! Stopped infront of the FCM building.... I've missed out once few weeks back on trying out this drink. Finally, I've made it !!! Got myself a cup of Earl Grey Ice Tea... nice one :)

Preferable to get a tea drink more than coffee.... though it's a bit expensive, but at least had a try. No regret....

Hahaha, as usual I went back for joining the master class with my supervisor. Which so luckily starbucks chill patrol came on that day. I'm not that favour on their coffee, but at least got tried out their teas...

Time to chill.... :)

Happy Birthday Mum ^^

Happy Birthday !!!

Just manage to celebrate mum's birthday at home (*her actual date of birthday is tomorrow). So we had an early celebration with her. We bought a small little tiramitsu cake for her for celebration. Hope she likes it..

Tadaa !! here is the birthday card... cute cute :)

Just took some photos with the birthday queen ^^

Oppss.... my bro took a snap shot at another angle while we were facing dad's hp camera.

My bro and mum

My dad and mum

Anyway, Happy Birthday Mummy, we always love you ^^

Holiday outing

Yesterday went out with my buddies whole day. Go sing k, watch movie (New Moon), having shabu shabu dinner at OUG.... pheww... what a tiring day.

One of my best buddy came back from Singapore. We hardly able to meet that often. Really happy hanging out with them. Aih, life is not as free as what we had during secondary life.... we only can meet once awhile. It's good to cherish such long term friendship for so long.

After watch the New Moon ( *which actually I've not even watch the first story "Twilight"), I falled into Jake fans.... "Jacob Black" !!!!!!!!

Awwwhh.... what a sweet charming little guy. Love his character in this movie which touches my heart so deeply on how he sacrifies his caring towards Bella... >.<" pity him because Bella still love towards Edward.. Anyway, is just a story.... but I do hope that my dear treat me even better than him la.... ^o^ (* I knew he will) Now I'm crazy for Jacob Black de figure d.... where can I get it?? Can it be my christmas present? or maybe even better for my big day presie? hmm.... dream about it ^^

That's him !!!! Jacob Black .... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ^^

被"屈"的感覺

Do you understand the feeling of being "insult" by people?

It's been so many years that the matter had passed, and yet bcoz of a small little thing (a photo) reminds of again... conflict starts again.

It is not my problem, but people tend to treat me like a "live dead people"... insult me that I'm the main factor caused the matter happen...I never say a single words after being hurt by that matter and yet still being said until like this..."是她不對在現,這一切都是她的問題"

我無辜變成罪灰禍首

Am I still alive?

失眠當吃"生菜"
嚴重失眠﹐是否是身體累所積的壓力而造成?
頭痛得要命就像是被一塊大石頭壓住...呼吸系統也出現了問題...
很累....

Am I still alive?
Hello ??? !!! knock knock knock....

I LOVE... Part II

I love to have suprise...
I love romantic...
I love wed proposal...
I love ring...
I love winter...
I love roses...
I love day dreaming...

How will I know when I can get all these "Love" suprise appear in my life??
Til I wait and see....

I don't wanna see my ugly face..

Pimples... scars... dull and sensitive.. all on my face!!!!
Why still cannot recover?? What to do with it?
Can't sleep well either... what's my problem?
WhY WhY WhY!!!!

I've lost myself confident liao... see other girls de face condition, smooth and supple.. no pimples, fair, pinkish skin colour glowing from their inner skin.
Gosh.. what about mine?

@_@

I LOVE......

I love cool weather,
I love Genting;
I love travelling,
I love Europe;
I love shopping,
I love Movies and drama;
I love sleeping,
I love Beautiful fair skin;
I love compact car,
I love Smart fortwo;
I love enjoying food,
I love Kimchi;
I love freedom... etc etc etc...

Too many things I love. But the most important thing is that...

I LOVE THE ONE I LOVE :-*

曹格 世界唯一的你

是你 一眼我就认出来 这是命运最美丽的安排

是爱 让你略过漫长等待 我们只要现在相爱 幸福就来

恨我来不及参与你的过去 抱歉让你等待

我愿意 付出一切交换 我灵魂的另一半

这个世界唯一的你 是我拥有的奇迹

对我说的一字一句 都是我们的秘密

紧紧拥抱唯一的你 无可救药的坚定

就算世界与我为敌 我也愿意 我什么都愿意

看开 过去所有的悲哀 都只是训练我为你 勇敢

真爱 照亮了漆黑的夜晚 寻找了彼此一辈子 再不分开

恨我来不及参与你的过去 抱歉让你等待

我愿意 付出一切交换 我灵魂的另一半

i will climb the highest moutain

i will swim the deeper sea

对我说的一字一句 都是我们的秘密

紧紧拥抱唯一的你 无可救药的坚定

就算世界与我为敌 我也愿意 我什么都愿意

我愿意 付出一切交换 我灵魂的另一半

i will climb the highest moutain

i will swim the deeper sea

就算上天下地 我什么都愿意为你

紧紧拥抱唯一的你 无可救药的坚定

就算世界与我为敌 我也愿意 我什么都愿意

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超爱这首歌叻... ^^

Bottle neck

Once again, I reach the bottle neck... my work got stuck !!! I lost my idea T_T

Tons of paper works and heavy workload have to done in a short period of time.When can I finish my PhD? When can I complete my job? Working all alone is really really scary.. it's quite demotivated. The descipline is a must but I don't have that with me.I need some synergy to boost myself. Or else I'll lost my direction again.

Lost

I dunno what's the point of living in such tension life. I feel so tired and helpless.

Why everything just doesn't goes smooth as I want. I don't have much time to waste as age catching up and I dunno where my direction should go. What I want, I can't achieve, what I wish; will never get it.

All I want is just a decent life.

Plssss..... DO SOMETHING !!!!

:(

Sleepless nite throughout the whole week

I can't sleep... too many things to think and settle.

Plus, with heavy headache.... even worst !! Need panadol to calm down just for few hours, then it returns again... @_@

Totally lost control d.... I dunno what am I doing now.
Really blur case O.o

The "break" in my brain doesn't stop. Gonna be mentally break down soon

Raya break holiday 21/9 - 22/9

Balik kampung.... woohoohoo balik kampung... woohoohoo balik kampung, riang ria !!!

Aiks ??? !!! I'm balik kampung ??? NoNoNo... ^o^

Not me la...
Then??? Where am I heading to then?

The teddy bear also wondered where were we headed to..

Here we are !!! Hot Spring Sg.Klah

This year's Raya break we went for a 2 days 1 night Hot Spring vacation at Sg.Klah, Perak. First time went for so called "hot spring" in Malaysia. All the while I just thought of hot spring this kind of place is only at Taiwan and Japan, didn't realised that Malaysia also had one too.

Since never try before, just go for it lor... (* promise myself that I surely will go try out those at Taiwan and Japan hot spring one day, IF I'm RICH .... LoL )

Here we are, 6 of us went for this vacation.

(**Photo taken at the main entrance of the hot spring)

Due to the reason of we all went down to the spring pool together, my DSLR have to keep at the locker; so we couldn't snap any photos. I had fun in the spring pool as all of us went there only around 7pm. Most of the people are leaving the place, so not really that crowded and hot stayed under the sun.

I feel so relaxed and happy once I got myself into the spring pool, it really helped me forgotten all the stress and tension feeling being compressed in my mind. After the session, the blood circulations made my turn immediate red. Looked like a tomato tranformed on my body.... XD

After that all of us were hungry until mad, so thought of hunt for any food as far as we can fill back our hungry stomach. But unfornately, it was the second day of Hari Raya.... hahaha, most of the shops closed !!!!

How How???? Mamak store, malay restaurant all closed. Ended up have to drive to the nearest small town, Slim River to hunt for food.... Reached that town was already nearly 9pm, we managed to find a chinese restaurant and had our dinner there. (* Luckily those shop haven close, or else worse come to worst we might have to buy cup noodle at the petrol station. )

After the dinner, everybody already felt exhausted; especially the drivers for this trip. 辛苦了两位。。 ^^

And this the hotel we stayed during the trip, Felda Residence, Trolak... (Just 10 mins away from the hot spring)

A last shot at the hotel before we head back to the busy city life in K.L

I do hope for a better trip again next time.

招架不住，快垮啦!!

黑眼圈跑出来了，晚上严重性失眠。怎么样??

工作，学业，情绪上的压力逐渐增加。为前途与钱途着想，开始变得不再是为自己而活，而是为了融入这个社会而活。

自己也觉得很奇怪，为何要怎么拼命；或许已经知道自己的能力是心有余而力不足，所以要比其他人更加努力才可以换来好日子。

更让现在的我，活得 "人唔似人，鬼唔似鬼" 。糟糕!!!!

别把我当成 “阿四” !!!!

Hahahaha, what a joke happened just now. I've nearly got myself into trouble by trying to help people as I'm becoming a servant :P

Don't wish to reveal as who is the person I'm mentioning, so better just keep quite and stay away from it. Maybe I easily get bully by people la, that's why people like to “打蛇随棍上” bully me lor.

No way man !!!! You want bully others, go find them.

BUT NOT ME DUDE !!!

XD

Graduation studio photo

Finally!!!!
It's been waited for 1 month already and the studio photo is done.

After getting this photo, only I realised that I lost weight a lot !!! Can't imagine how "残" my face is... even can see my face already "凹" inside already... :(

...... Is this really the sacrifications for getting a Master? How about PhD then?? Aren't that I'm preparing to become a 干尸 @_@

My family photo

I need a break !!!

Study.. working... preparation for phd stuff... freelance etc @_@

Workload reach til everything can falls on my head at the same time.

I need a break!!! put a "STOP" sign on my head. Time to relax ^^

Raya !!!! I want go walk walk :P

Chill chill .....

Nite ^^v

Scholarship?? Work?? Scholarship?? Work??

-__-"

aih... got the PhD offer letter d, also not a good thing. Why?

Read the letter, got so many things have to prepare for the registration. One of it is regarding the letter of scholarship.

I've check the Ministry of Higher Education website, plan to apply the scholarship d.. but with condition, I must not be working (*including permanent status and even contract basis) -_-
But I'm currently working as a research officer (RO) back in uni, is under contract basis.

How ler? what if they keep track my EPF record? Although my contract gonna end at this Oct, but still, i'm consider working.. I wonder can I still apply?

Anyway, I will still try to apply lor... if they reject me that time... only think how again >.<

Wish me luck lor

如果有一天，我不见了。。你会找到我吗??

Hahaha.... funny seeing this statement in one of my fren's status. What la?? Play hide and seek meh.... If one day I've gone, will you able to find me?? -__-

Then suddenly this statement bounce in my mind, ever think of this if really happens to me one day, how ar???

Who can find me ler?

OFFER OF ADMISSION TO MULTIMEDIA UNIVERSITY FOR POSTGRADUATE STUDY

Message from the Institute for postgraduate studies:

We have the pleasure to inform you that you are offered an admission to pursue your studies in the Doctor of Philosphy (Ph.D.) (Creative Multimedia) by research programme. The details are given below..........

bla bla bla..... bla bla bla...

XD

I've got it !! Yeah yeah... my Ph.D. offer letter... whoahohohohoho...

Finally can take this letter to apply the scholarship from MOHE... I hope I can get it la. (* Pray for it hard)

男生爱看美女

Why guys like to see pretty girls? Girls with big boobs.. sexy body.. beautiful outlook.. fair skin... bla bla bla....

Is girls forever seduce by guys with their first impression?

I wonder.... how about you?? ^^

De Gem

The ring of promises. I like it very much..

Hope to own this one day ^^

A walk

I wish to have a walk, I mean.... out of the city life kind of walk...

Everybody seems to have their time to relax, go trip to island, to other states, or even just for a one day trip for and easy outing activity.

I just managed to graduate from master. Should I say to myself, I should take a break for a long holiday??? Yes, I should coz I deserve it, after all the hardwork.

But everything bounds back to square one whereby... don't have extra $$$$$$ to go... wahahahhahaa...

Tension tension now....

My Master Degree Graduation

Graduation ceremony finally over. 080809 is the significant date for me to start my new life.

Sweet little graduation teddy bear. Which I love the most.... thx for dear for giving me a sweet gift ^^

Which means, I'm officially graduated. Yeah !!

Group photo with Prof. Woods, with the whole knowledge management graduates.

MMU 10th Convocation was held at Cyberjaya. It was crowded and busy on the first day of convocation. Early in the morning, I've to be there at 7am sharp for the postgraduate assembly. Zainab, Eza and I was so excited.... (* we bz setting up our mortar board on head, fit our robe nicely ..bla bla bla... wahahaha )

Snap !!! Our first group photo taken after we are ready ^^

After that, more and more picture taken XD

Zainab and Me. I love this photo very much.

While inside the hall, we keep snapping photo during the ceremony. The most happy moment was when we got down from stage and got our scroll.

^^ We got our scroll !! All smile so happily

Once the ceremony over. Is time to celebrate with my cousins. I'm so lucky to share the graduation happy moment together with my cousin brother bcoz we graduate at the same day.

Lovely cousins.

Of course, my family photos were taken too.

Me and Issac, one of my PhD pilot study class's student ;)

Thanks for all the lovely graduation gifts from all of you. Appreciate it so much.

Tomorrow is the BIG day !!!

080809… Another significant date to me for my new journey. MMU 10th Convocation in year 2009, where I’m going to graduate as a master. Although it might sounds normal for those who are already have own their master before; but I’m so glad I’ve made it until this way.

Wait for another 2 years, I hope to complete my PhD …. Maybe that time, people might think I’m already a mad person. Hohohohohohoho….

See you all at my convocation tomorrow at Cyberjaya …. (** I mean for those who able to make it)

;-)

Yea... Got it finally !!

????? This ....

+

This.....

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Taadaa !!!

I've got it... I've got it finally !!! My graduation robe !!! Hahahahaha

Went back to campus this morning to activate my smartcard and to collect my robe.. phew !!! wasted the whole morning to settle all those stuff. Besides that, also went to collect the convo invitation card. Walk here and there... and finally everything done.



Tomorrow have be at campus at 8.30a.m for rehearsal somemore @_@ pengsan lor !!!

Yet still, looking forward for tomorrow to come ^^

4 more days to go....

Dunno why, so nervous about this coming convocation. Makes me totally out of working mood. Although I've experienced b4 for my undergraduate convocation. But this time the feeling is totally different. Everything seems to be so hard to achieve. Maybe this is how hardwork pays off for myself.

Sleepness nite for me lately, being bz of thinking working stuff, freelances, etc (*besides convocation thing)

@_@ panda eyes appears d... hv to do double, triple mask to keep in good condition lor.. (*but sad.... my skin condition all the while also not good... wuwuwuwuwu, sob sob T.T )

I stay in love

I stay in love - Mariah Carey

Baby, I Stay In Love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can doBaby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.

Shopping Spree, but not me -_-"

Sweet saturday, a weekend outing....

Today went out with my 2 cousins to 1 Utama. The main purpose is to help my cousin brother to buy a blazer and formal pants for this coming convocation. So this morning we were departing from my house to bangsar to meet up my sweet cousin sis.

Read newspaper this morning regarding several roadblocks set on the road down to the city centre yesterday. Well, guess today will be even worse since it's the day. So we decide to depart early, yet.... we trapped in the jam !!!! @_@ We already use the opposite way heading towards bangsar, but also the same. (We use connaught highway to Mid Valley) When we almost reach the exit near mid valley... all the vehicles stood stand still condition !!! No choice lor, have to change the route.. again we heading towards the federal highway take shortcut from Pantai Hospital Bangsar there. Spend 45 mins to be there at my cousin's house. Poor my cousin bro that has to drive there with his manual car... legs definately got numb

So after breakfast.. we straight away headed to 1U... Didn't realize that quite crowded in such early hours. 11 + we reached.. nearly car park full.... OMG !!! Guess ppl expected KL will jam, so they come to 1U I think..

After we found our parking... we straight away hunt for the blazer... wooahh, never realise guy's blazer can be that expensive... we went G2000 to check.... hahhaha, at least RM599 onwards. Just for the blazer only !! Then we went for a few more shops like Padini, Seed, Durban, John master etc etc... ended up we decide to get one from Seed. After discount cost around RM300+ >.< (*since this needed urgently for next week's convo... hv to buy, LoL)

Me and my cousin sis

Cold drink !!! Oppps.... forgot myself can't drink ice drink due to the rashes -_-" Gotcha !!

Me and Kae Sheng

After tat we went to take our lunch there and had a short walk before going back to Bangsar. By the time finish walking.. already nearly 5pm d... Then after my cousin sis send us home. We take back our car earlier to go back cheras lor... i was shocked while on the way back. Didn't realized that the jam is still there !!!

And this time even worse !!! All the roads heading towards city centre still the same... JAM JAM JAM!!! (*pity those drivers who stuck in the jam)

I managed to take some pic during on the way home... Federal highway heading down town, Connaught highway that we depart early this morning, all jam. As for our opposite way back home... like no cars around... LoL

Aih, next time really hv to get myself an auto car... else, if i'm driving today.. my leg will break d..
Conclusion, out for a shopping spree… but not me. LoL

Countdown for my Convo 08-08-09

Finally, my master convocation gonna arrive soon. Been bz for the last few weeks (*convo registration, robe rental bla..bla..bla..)

This time I'm so lucky, manage to graduate together with my cousin brother too. Hahaha....

Next week gonna go get my robe already, really can't wait for tat day to come.

8 days left !!!! ^^

Beautiful lies

I thought this would not happen to me again, and yet it happened..

Should I just forget it? or it's a break of a promise?

Why can't just be honest to me?

I'm sad.... holly crap now !!

No need sleep already.

Bukit Tinggi_Colmar Tropicale

Just came back from Bkt Tinggi... weeeeee !!! Went up there last sunday, 2d1n short trip.

It's quite some time I never been there already. (*Only once during my photography assignment way back my undergraduate studies) Given me a feeling of only a slight changes there. Haha, the swans is still around there....

The purpose of this trip is mainly treated as my rewards of celebrating for my completion of master studies. Get myself out for a break from the tension studies and bz working life in Uni.

Although it's not long holiday... but I did enjoyed. Great to have my dear too for accompany me for this trip.